A Letter

Dear Girl,

I am writing this letter because I need to get these feelings off my sleeve and onto paper (or the electronic form of paper).  I don't know if you know how much I like you, I'm sure you do because of the things I say and do.  What you may not know is just how much I think of you.  I can't sleep sometimes because I'm thinking of you and about how much I want to be with you.  I keep telling myself that I just have to be patient, but I am not a very patient person, not with someone I am so crazy about.  I keep trying to work out in my head whether it's just because I'm lonely or horny.  I actually don't think it is the latter, because to be perfectly blunt, I still think of being with you after I have masturbated.  If I was just horny for you, the feelings would pass for a while after I was done.  They don't pass... the act of masturbation has now just become a distraction for me to briefly stop thinking of you.  Don't get me wrong, I am extremely attracted to you and strongly desire to be sexually intimate with you.  I also don't think it's mainly because I am lonely, because to be perfectly honest, I have dating options.  I don't want to take those options because what I want is you.  I don't even want to have anything casual with anyone else because that wouldn't be fair to anyone when all I'd be thinking of is you.  I know you've had your heart broken and you just want to be friends.  I just don't know if you even think about anything more with me.  From some of the signals you've sent, I think you do, but then you send me different signals and I just become unsure.  I don't know if I can do the friends thing with you, because it drives me crazy that you aren't mine and may never become mine.  I love spending time with you, but it also makes me miss you even more when I'm not with you.  I don't feel this way often or with just anyone, but when I do, it almost becomes an obsession that consumes my thoughts.  Anyway, I don't imagine you'll ever read this, and if you do, maybe you won't know it's addressed to you... then again, you probably will figure it out.  I just needed to get these feelings and thoughts out in a semi-structured way.  I am hoping that it helps me be a little less crazy, and just calm down these emotions so I can continue to be patient and continue to just be a good friend to you.

Yours Truly,
Boy